Here's the story behind the two names and why my blog is now called Hangtw.

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The Meaning Behind Clouded Hue

The name Clouded Hue came from a time period when I felt very lost.  At the time, I was completing a Computer Science degree but I didn't know what I wanted to do with myself afterwards.  It was frustrating to revolve my life around this subject and do very well, yet, I couldn't confidently say that this was my passion and I want to do this forever.  A void inside of me wouldn't shake and thoughts kept me up at night.

What's my passion?
What do I want to do?
What's my purpose?
How do I get rid of this emptiness?
How can I be happy??

 

My mind was clouded and I experienced an emotional spectrum, which I referred to by hues.  I needed to get to know myself and that's what I did. Finally, I've found clarity.

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Hangtw = HangTW = Hang T Nguyen (pronounced like "WEN")

 

And yes, Hang is my real name. I'm (proudly) a hybrid designer developer who's passionate about photography, fashion, and design.  I love sharing experiences, connecting with others, and challenging myself become a better version of me each day.  Over the past year, all of my uncertainties has went away.  I've gained clarity on who I am, what I want, where I want to go, and who I want to become.  Life has a new meaning for me because I've finally found my purpose and I wake up excited to work towards it everyday.

 

The name change from Clouded Hue to Hangtw is the story of girl who once felt totally lost but is now confidently herself.

 

 

Top: Marshalls | Bottom: New Look Fashion | Denim Jacket: My BF's Closet (Thrifted) | Photography: Michelle Khan

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  1. I love how there’s so much meaning behind “Clouded Hue”. Super happy for you that you found yourself/passion on what you want to do. Hopefully, I’ll get there soon. Mucho love <3

    • cloudedhue

      Thanks so much for your endless support Jen! 😭

  2. I don’t know why I thought “tw” meant “the wolf.” I love the story behind both names!!

    • cloudedhue

      hahaha! I think a lot of people thought it was something like that when I started to see people use “tw” in their usernames. but thank you! ^_^

  3. I really hope you’ll see this. I’m taking my bachelor degree in IT and I’m currently on my first year and so uncertain what to “specialize” in next year. I’m basically torn between backend and frontend haha. What programming languages have you learned and are you happy with what you know? I’m very behind in math and I’m also afraid I might suck at designing websites haha

    • cloudedhue

      Backend = working on the brain of the program and how it works
      Designer = interpreting the goal of the program and turning it into something that’s visually appealing and easy for people to use
      Frontend = implementing the design so users can interact with the program

      Choose what you are most interested in and don’t think about your skill set when choosing. Skills can always be improved but it’s hard to get interested in something you don’t really like to begin with.

    • I’m glad to see @Hangtw find her purpose! I’m about to enter my last year and I recall posting on her blog when I was switching over to Computer Science. Still sorting things out on my end, but:

      @Tine, I actually am finishing up a course on the principles of programming languages, and Hangtw hits the hammer on the nail — don’t be too worried about which programming languages to learn. Programming languages should be viewed as tools to accomplish a certain task, so some languages are better at completing a certain task over another. However, at the end of the day, most of the logic required for one language carries over — the main thing that needs to be practiced is the syntax or “grammatical structure,” to make sure that the semantics or “meaning” carries over! Good luck on your studies, and work hard! 🙂

  4. I’m currently feeling lost as well but this is such an inspiring article!
    I’m so happy for you, Hang and i’ve been visiting your blog so often because I love your website so much!
    <3 Keep on being you and I cant wait to read more from you!

  5. I’m a 16 year old who is currently in the last month of going into my last year of high school. I had a talk 2 days ago with my dad and he asked me what my passions were, what i wanted to be, what made me happy and what am i working towards.I couldn’t find an answer to any of those questions and i felt so lost. I don’t know what i want to do with my life except having this burn inside me of wanting to do something amazing. I read this post and i’m so happy for you that you found all the answers you wanted but i wanted to ask what am i supposed to do to try and find out my purpose? I don’t even do anything fun when i’m bored except scroll through social media and study towards the unknown. Can you give me some advice? Just tell me anything that will help me. SOS lol hahaha

    • Hang

      Take it easy and don’t be so hard on yourself. Finding a purpose takes time and it usually happens during your 20s when you realize what’s most important to you and how you want to help the world! Take some time off of social media and explore real world activities like joining a dance group, starting photography, networking with others around you, cooking, or a boxing class. There’s so much out there that you can try out! My advice is to experience. If you can experience things, you can find out what you like, what you don’t like, what you’re interested in, etc. This will take you closer to finding a purpose.

  6. oh my, i’m really happy to have stumbled upon this!! i’m finishing up my first year in uni as pre-CS and while i do enjoy my CS classes so far, i’ve been feeling kinda lost as to what i’d do with a CS degree in 3 years. my brother and a lot of friends of mine are in the field, so i was thinking i could just get by doing anything they could hook me up with and eventually find a career path… but my passions, like yours, are photography, fashion, and basically anything relating to visual design!

    so… i wanted to ask, how did you dive into the designer developer field (are you independent or w/ a company)? what are some things that you like / dislike about it, and how stable is it? in general, is it a career that you’d recommend to someone like me? i’m really happy for you to have found yourself and i think this post may have brought me a little bit closer to finding clarity, like you have. <3

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